I Love You

I choke on a mixture of my own vomit and the words I LOVE YOU................

I love you, took on a whole new meaning. 

More than the fluttery words propped up on roses and criscrossed in diamond necklaces.

Everytime you made love to me, 

There was an audience...............

I knew they were looking.

Whatever the time of day, you didn't seem to care. 

But they were always ready for a show those blasted perverts.

Those neighbours that never ever said much, but gave a nod and smiled,

The ones who came over and said hello when we first moved in,

The ones who said that if there was ever anything I needed just a call and they'd be right over.  

They stood around in their houses, became one with their windows, doors or hedges 

Just so they could see and hear us, when you made love to me. 

I remember it like yesterday, the day I said, "I do"

I remember the words I said "till death do us part",

And I remember loving you, and you said you loved me too.

Till DEATH couldn't come fast enough, 

How the hell did I end up on the bathroom floor, 

Blooding spewing from my nose, and a pain in my stomach that gave child birth stiff competition?

At least, at the end of having your child, I was happy, 

In that moment I was a frazzled bundle of confusion and desperation. 

As I gathered strength and stood again all I heard was "I LOVE YOU"

Since when did "I LOVE YOU" mean, I'm going to beat the sense and sensibility out you? 

My brain could not translate.

And all the while I'm there on the floor, remember those neighbours none of them made a move. 

"I LOVE YOU" now meant, I was his punching bag, 

And everytime he made love to me,

I wished he'd just kill me, until that day when He really went out of his way 

He made love to me with those powerful sledge hammer knuckles and those steel toe boots

Until Till death actually came and He killed me.

With all those friendly neighbours standing round their homes and listening to the live prformance!!!!!!!!